Energetic Healing of My Own Anger

In my years of doing Access Energy Transformation I have seenso many dramatic changes in my life of more ease in everything Ido, increased psychic abilities, greater charisma, personalpower that I had never believed that I had and a variety ofabilities that are too many to mention.
One part of my life was not progressing at the same way thatwas my resentments towards others. It seemed as much as I wascreating ease, joy and glory in my life an anger towards others,my past and worst, the people that I cared for the most wasalways working against my growth. It was one of those placesthat I could not resolve; therapy, inner exploration and thestandard access clearings seemed to not work. My resentments andmistrusts were always a monkey on my back that never fully wentaway.
My girlfriend who is very perceptive told me that there is adeep rage within me that I had yet to explore. She could feel itand it made her feel uncomfortable. I responded, “I’m not thatangry! Sure I have my resentments but that is not inner rage.Besides, I have gone into my childhood and I understood theabuses that occurred to me. I have come to peace with them.”
My girlfriend did not share my point of view. She was leavingfor two months to work in another country and asked that Iexplore those hidden places within me. Respectfully I began tolook into that process.
A friend gave me some good advice about anger, “Allow it, anddon’t judge it, experience it and it will go.” It was a goodstart but there was more that I needed.
A few days later is was listening to an Access CD by GaryDouglas on the topic of Anger. As usual Gary said something thatwas profoundly what I needed to hear. He said, “I would keeppushing into the barriers and open up my woundedness,experiencing the intensity that most would label as pain. Eachtime I did and allowed it to be I found within me a greaterpower and a bigger being.”
In an instant I knew that was what I needed to know. With thatnugget of knowledge I embarked on a fearless journey within me.I was beginning a nine-day spring break holiday and since mygirlfriend was gone I would have a lot of time to myself.
Whenever a resentment, anger or a heavy feeling would pop intomy mind I would stop and ask a question, “What is this about?”Then I would sit and wait. The energy of the anger would appearmuch like Gary described. I would feel the intensity of theexperience and most of the time the memories of the past wouldcome to mind. Instead of judging it I would feel it as fully aspossible and embrace the experience.
After a while I would ask, “Is there a deeper origin to thisanger and where is the source of that?” I would wait again.Generally a new intensity of energy would appear and afterwaiting I would get the information of what happened to createit. It appeared that my body wanted me to release this and wasdoing whatever it took to guide my awareness to it. When Ireleased the anger my body always felt better, more vibrant. Theolder suppressed anger was generally more intense but I used thesame strategy of allowing it to be. Then after I perceived thatI had experienced all of it I would begin doing Access clearingson the repressed energetic experiences.
After I did the clearings I would experience a huge releasethat felt great. In a few days I found that suddenly I washaving hardly any resentments. I also found that my mistrustingfeelings towards others were diminishing as well. I was justhappy and content. What I discovered that almost all of myday-to-day frustrations had an origin from the past and reallyhad little to do with my present day challenges. It felt likenothing really bothered me anymore or for least very long.
It was amazing experiencing my traumas that I had feared all ofmy life. I had created so many internal messages to avoid fromthese ‘bad’ memories and repressed them even more. What I hadlearned is that these memories became an energetic implant thatmanipulated me to draw in more fears, dramas and anger as a wayto reenenergize the older pain. When they cleared it felt like aremoving the bottom blocks of a pyramid my limitations werecrashing down all around me.
Within a few days my body was feeling completely different. Itwas light like an inner space had opened. When I did meditationsor communing with nature it felt as if I was truly a part of theforest or the universe it self. A cosmos was happening withinme, I began to know what the god source within was like for me. The suppressed angers were like energetic boulders that cut offmy receiving to this infinite reality and probably much more.Now I can access this expanded self any time I choose to be it.
As I work with others using these tools I see radically dynamicresults. Access had always worked in big ways but clearing thesuppressed anger got to the core of so many issues with people. They happily reported stories of how much happier and expandedtheir lives were. I delighted in their accomplishments.
Interestingly my business immediately picked up to a new level.Suddenly people began to come to see me out of nowhere. The biginner space of me was pulling them in. My life has been growingin a wonderful way with less effort, with more joy andabundance.
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